Thursday, March 29, 2012

Weight Check Wednesday

Down point two.  I'm pretty bummed.  Yes, I lost, and of course I'm grateful, but I worked my ass off this week!!! Sort of.  I worked out five days in a row to that damn 30 Day Shred and I thought I was GOING TO DIE.  But then as usual, I binged ALL WEEKEND long.  Ugh.  What is WRONG with me?!?!

I need something more.  I don't know what to do.  I need to get over this damn hump, it's going to kill me, it really is.  I'm considering that alli that has all those commercials or that hcg that I got a spam email about the other day.  Can you believe that?!?! ME!! I'm considering these scams.  I can't believe it.

I'm also considering ordering some accutane from an online pharmacy in India.  Meryl, if you're reading this, I'm TOTALLY kidding.  Anyone else, if you're reading this, and you don't hear from me in a while, call for help because the accutane I ordered was actually rat poison and I've died.

I am going to go see an actual doctor first, next Thursday.  And if (c'mon, let's get real, WHEN) he says no, I'm going to see a civilian (read, OUT OF POCKET) dermatologist the following Monday.  And if she says no too, I don't know what else to do!! I've done it twice before, it's a miracle drug, I've had my tubes tied, I'm already crazy- what else is the problem?

I'm thirty!!! I shouldn't have a pizza face!!!

Not sure how I got on that topic.  What I really want to talk about is The Killing on AMC.  DO NOT TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT IT.  After I finished Homeland and it was the CRAPPIEST ENDING IN THE HISTORY OF EVER, I found the Killing on our On Demand (let me stop right here and tell you how awesome On Demand is.  It's TOTALLY awesome.  I barely even tivo anything anymore because you can just watch it On Demand instead!!! I'm not sure how long shows will stay on there, but here's hoping they make it through the summer because, as I'm sure you've noticed, I watch a LOT of television) and it's my newest obsession.

I know I tend to be pretty dramatic.  But hear me out: this is the most well written (thus far, and I do know that they don't solve this case by the end, I knew that going in, even though you wouldn't have if you watched it in real time), superbly acted, breathtakingly photographed, and beautifully scored television show that I've watched since... well since ever.  It reminds me a lot of the X Files, except instead of a new case every week, they're just working this one murder.  And it's prettier, and more well directed.  And no offense to my most beloved and cherished Mulder and Scully, but Linden and Holder are...better.

I can NOT believe I just said that.  I'm actually a little nervous.  What if Mulder or Scully founds out I said that?!?!

Oh phew, they're not real.  So they probably won't care.

Anyway.  There's twelve episodes and I've made it through ten.  Ten was stupid, and it was the first time I had a single negative thought about it at all.  They went off on a tangent about her son being missing and I thought it was just a little much.

I would LOVE to tell you who I think did it, so that I can say later "See!?!?! I told you so!!!" but I actually have absolutely NO idea.  Jamie? Darren? The real mayor? Sterling? A hobo we haven't met yet? I truly have NO IDEA.  This has only happened to me once before, and for the life of me, I can't remember when.  I'm distracted because all I can think about is I'm hungry I'm hungry I'm hungry, The Killing The Killing The Killing.  I love Holder I love Holder I love Holder. Darren is pretty cute too I hope he didn't do it.

I used to be super smart, did I ever tell you that?

I can't believe I said Linden and Holder are better than Mulder and Scully.  But you know what?

They are.


  1. i actually love accutane! it was a miracle drug for me. the pharmacy once gave me an extra month by accident so i stashed it and used it years later (when i was like, 22) for 1 month and it cleared my skin so beautifully that it makes me want to use it all over again! seriously, i love it! BUT, have you tried a topical tretenoin? its like topical accutane. that works for wrinkles and acne!! if that doesn't work (no difference in 3 wks or so), you should definitely try accutane again.

  2. I was on Accutane too, but pre-kids. I had horrible acne, horrible. Have you tried mineral makeup? I was really struggling with acne post-kids and mineral makeup has REALLY helped. I still get break outs here and there, but nothing like before. I cut out most pop as well and excess sugar (read: entire boxes of candy) and I think that helped too.

    I hear you on the weight loss too. Jillian Michaels has this pill that you take 15 minutes before you eat and it's supposed to help curb your appetite, I was *this close* to buying it at the NEX the other day. I figured it wasn't going to heal the emotional stuff, so I put it back on the shelf. I told Matt I keep gaining and losing the SAME EXACT three pounds. I'm an emotional eater though, but I'm trying hard to work through it. Breakthrough has to be just around the corner. Nicole