Thursday, September 6, 2012

Photo Fun

Well Nick is gone again.  This time for between one and two months.  Ish.  Then again, last summer, I thought he was leaving for a few weeks and they stayed out for five months to the day.  So...let's not think about that.

Wanna know what's weird? It's been almost a YEAR since I had to deal with this.  They came back from that five month underway on like Sept 17th.  Or 15th.  Something like that.  And then we've basically been holding hands and playing kissy face ever since.  I guess he went under for a few days to get the boat from Guam to here, and then he was gone for like twenty minutes a few weeks ago, but basically no, he's been here.  Maybe God figured this shipyard period could count for shore duty, and that's why we're getting fucked out of London Adjacent?  Who knows.

So that bites.  I planned on spending this two months (ish) purging for the move, calling about schools over there, getting our overseas screenings done, shopping for cold-weather clothes, all that good stuff.  Instead, I'll be spending this two months (ish) alternating between crying, laughing hysterically, and trying to come to terms with staying here and being married to a man with the Navy's Worst Job in the History of Ever for the next two years.

So fun times!!
Anyway.  I'm still trying not to think about it as much as possible.  We've done all we can do.  Which is basically nada.  Plenty of people are assuring me that he won't be selected (including Old Bossman, Meg, if you're reading this, I cried last Friday when Nick got home and told me all the things Dave said.  Cried in a good way.  Cried in a way that it's probably a good thing I didn't bump into him in the commissary because I would have thrown my arms around his neck and cried some more.) but it doesn't make me feel that much better.  Old Bossman said there's too many sub guys there right now, that they won't want another one.  And I trust him, because he sort of knows which end is up.  But I'm still a wreck, and I'm sure I will be until we know for certain.

In mid October.

Look at her, acting like she's some sort of big kid.
Ugh.  I guess there's a chance he could get passed over immediately, in which case we might find out within the next three weeks (ish) but I'm not counting on that.

UGH!!! SEE?!?! This is why I try not to think about it!!! It just gets me all worked up!!! And there's nothing we can do!!! I repeat this verse to myself (yes, out loud.  People think I'm Bus Stop Mary.  I don't care) hundreds of times a day.  It's basically been my go-to for as long as I can remember.  You know, since I have such fun anxiety problems and all :)

 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
-Phil 4:6-7
So yeah.  Trying to catch that peace of God.  I'm actually doing really well, if I do say so myself.  I take my zoloft NO MATTER WHAT, so I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, instead of assuming that I'M GOING TO FEEL LIKE SHIT FOR THE REST OF MY ENTIRE HISTORY OF LIFE FOREVER AND EVER. So that's nice.  I won't kill myself if we have to stay here, and I won't become an alcoholic if we lose London and have to go somewhere lame instead.  Whatever He wants to happen, I guess that's what's going to happen.  And really, when you put it like that, why bother being upset? There's nothing I can do about it.


Do my pictures look any different? Any better? I've been using PW's free actions forever, and I recently started using coffeeshopblog's (also free) but whenever Nick leaves for an extended period of time, I usually pre-reward myself with a snazzy gift of some sort.  (I didn't pre-reward before the five monther bc we didn't KNOW it was going to be a five monther, but I sure as hell post-rewarded, remember? With my MacMac?!?! I love this beast.)  What was I talking about? My kids are bothering me.

Oh yeah, buying actions.  I debated for days and days and days between MCP and Florabella, and finally just bit the bullet and went with Florabella.  Her website was displaying things that were more the style I love, but MCP had beautiful images too.  Who knows.  I already  have buyer's remorse, but I'm hoping after I play around a little more, I'll get more comfortable.

Angela and I have noticed one (sucktastic) thing.  The most important aspect of running actions is to...start with a stella photo.

So that's lame.

I went with the color play and retouch packages, both of which were on sale.  At MCP, I was wanting to get the incredible retouch package, which included bag of tricks, which she says can slim your subjects!!

Anyway, Florabella had the artistic finishes, and MCP was just straight up (but AMAZING) crystal clear edits, so I snagged florabella.

I might be a little obsessed with her black and whites.  They.  Are.  Amazing.
Same pic from earlier, it just looks so great in BW that I had to post this too!!

And I would like to submit this into evidence as proof that I do, in fact, take some pictures of my other children.

Well.  At least of Warren.


  1. I actually saw those first two pics of Daisy and though 'wow, those are some really great shots' so I can tell the difference! I never got along too well with my cheapo copy of PSE so could never justify the upgrade to 'real' PS.
    Love your watermark, too. I should start doing that but I am so lazy.
    Also? Orders limbo is the worst, hopefully you'll hear something.

  2. 2 things. one, i wish i had something useful to say. i can't imagine waiting around and not knowing. you're being a better sport than me. i'm struggling to keep my head above water and can't really put my finger on why. so, thanks for commiserating. i think that's a word.
    two, i'm loving your pics. i need to click on those links and get some of those products. so cool.
    your children are beautiful!

  3. those BW ARE amazing!!
    and that one of daisy! AH!

  4. I really need to step my game up on photographing. I've never heard of the stuff you mentioned. Love the pics. My fav is the bw of Daisy holding the side of the pool.

  5. I do not know how you do it when Nick is gone, and I am so sorry about the London situation. Just tonight, Scott is gone just for the night, and I had to pray about a million times to not absolutely lose every ounce of patience that I had trying to get the kitchen cleaned up and the kids bathed and in bed. So, I am praying for you, is what I am trying to say.