Friday, November 16, 2012


I have a tummy ache.  I had some time to kill before I had to pass out snacks at Warren's preschool (what?!?!) so I was driving through the shopping center to get a fountain diet coke for a dollar from McDonalds.  And then the FIRST FRONT spot opening up in front of Starbucks, right when I was pulling up.  It felt rude not to take it, so I pulled in and got a peppermint mocha frappe thing and guzzled it down.  So, currently, I feel like I'm going to vomit from all the sugar.  But man, it was good going down.

I am still reading Pillars of the Earth.  Still. I haven't actually touched it since the last time I talked about it, but it's still on my shelf, and I plan to finish it next week.

This little gem came out last week and currently, it's one of the best books I've ever read. And I haven't wanted to read anything since.  Does anyone else do that? Every time I really a truly WONDERFUL book, I like don't want to read anything else for a while.  It's sort of like I want to keep these words fresh in my mind or something.  So stupid, I know.  I didn't read for about four months after HP7 if that helps paint a picture of how deep my crazy really goes.

If you haven't read The Passage yet, I don't know if we can stay friends.  THAT book is honestly the best non SK book I've ever read.  I loved it SO MUCH. You can read about how much I loved it here.
Now, I'm not one of those people who automatically thinks sequels are lame.  I thought Catching Fire was better than The Hunger Games, and I thought all the HP books got better and better.  Although five is my personal favorite, just so you know.  Or six.  It's a close call.  But I love three as well.  Oh hell, I love them all.  And in the Dark Tower series, even though One is sort of the best, Three was my favorite.  And four.

I can't really do this, so let's just stop.  I think we all know I can't pick a favorite book.

ANYWAY.  I didn't go into this thinking it wasn't going to live up to the first, because that's just not how I see books.  Each one is its own thang.  And while I was reading this, I kept thinking it was better than the first.  In hindsight, it wasn't, but I think it says a lot that I kept thinking that.

It goes waaay back to the beginning of the virus, which I loved, because that's one of the things I hated about the first one. I thought it was so ingenious how he jumps ahead a hundred years, but it left me longing to read about WHAT happened those first few years.  How it spread, how the government collapsed, all that apocalypse gore that I love.

Then it goes way ahead, but still behind The Passage so we can see some of the other civilizations that were around when The Colony was doin its thing, thinking they were the last of the human race.

Which, as a side note, I thought would have been a cool way to go.  Maybe not the LAST people, but just a few scattered people in the wilderness besides them.  I was a little bummed to discover the governments and stuff in Texas.

But it's his story, not mine.

I thought the way he wrapped it up was a little tacky, but just a little.  A little too convenient, a little too easy.  Sort of like the end of Under the Dome.  But the way they got there was more important to me anyway, so it was still amazeballs.  The journey is more important than the destination and all that.

PS I love Michael.  I need to reread the first one because I barely remember him, but he was so great in this one. I also say Cronin ripped off Barbie from Under the Dome and used him to create the Last Stand in Denver, but that's okay with me.

My prediction for the third one is that we'll find out what happened to April and Danny and everyone on the bus and hopefully we'll get a lot more of Carter.  And I'm certainly not all about the romance, but I sort of hope things work out for Amy and Peter, you know? I realize Amy will have to undergo some SERIOUS changes...but whatever. I think she deserves it.

I also read this real quick.

It's an actual sequel to the Giver, my Absolute Number One Favorite Book in the History of Ever, unlike Gathering Blue and...the other one. Messenger? This follows Gabe's mama as Jonas is being chosen as the Receiver and then bolts with the baby before his dad has to kill him, and then follows the mama (Claire) as she leaves the community and tries to find her son.

Again, I thought the ending was a little tacky and convenient, but the part where Claire is in the seaside town was so beautiful and touching, it made me cry on more than one occasion.

If you haven't read the Giver yet, you're missing out.  I might reread the other two because I don't even remember what they're about, but since they only vaguely tie in to the Giver, alls you need to do is quick read the Giver, then dive in to Son.  Then, if you're hungry for more, try the other two.

Currently, I sort of feel like I was slapped in the face.  I realized yesterday, as my world apparently crumbled around my feet, that I haven't been in the Word for weeks.  WEEKS. I have no excuse, other than laziness.  But yesterday, that refreshing slap? It was like a light went on.  Of COURSE my life feels hectic and crazy and hopeless.  Life without the Word IS hectic and crazy and hopeless.

So, like an old friend, I immediately flipped to my most comforting verses.
This is not actually my own Bible, I found this on the internet and I love it.

I'm normally a stickler for the 'traditional' translations of the Bible, but I found this on Pinterest and I think it does an amazing job of rephrasing it in a great way.

It's from the Message version, and to me, it's perfect.  So perfect, in fact, that I want to ask LB, if you're reading this, if you know anything about The Message and if you think it's a good idea for me to get one.  I currently only have a traditional NIV and a study edition NIV, that's it. I love the New King James, and sometimes, for my favorite verses, I like to read the good ole original King James.  I've always stayed away from any newer translations because I'm crazy and they worry me (like, don't mess with the Word or something) but now I think maybe I was over reacting?

I mean, listen to this again.  Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and SETTLE YOU DOWN.  It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces the worry at THE CENTER of your life.

Message received Lord.  Haha, pun.  See what happened there?

Anyway, I usually stop with 6&7, but today, 8 is speaking to me as well.

Here's my NIV version:

Philippians 4:8

New International Version (NIV)
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

The King James and New King James are pretty similar, but again, the Message says it just a tad different.  Differently?

Philippians 4:8

The Message (MSG)
8-9 Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.

I'm a worrier.  And a pessimist.  And a bitch.  But maybe I need to spend more time focusing on the best, not the worst.  The beautiful, instead of the ugly.  Things to praise, not things to curse.

And the stake in my heart? The slap on my already red, slapped face? "Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and REALIZED."  Who on this earth would look at ME, and think 'oh, she learned that from Jesus?"

Uh, lately? No one.

Worse even than that is the risk that people will look at me and say "Oh!! She learned THAT from Jesus.  That's why I hate Jesus."

So there's that.

And that's about all I have to say about my current state of mind.

We're gearing up for our weekend, we've only got five left and Nick will be gone for at least two of them, so really, we've only got three.  Three weekends left in paradise.  Any suggestions on things we should do?

Also, this is what happened while I was typing this out.  Poor thing.  She's had a hard time converting to one nap a day, and on days when Warren has school and she has to stay awake till one? Forget it.
How do you like that swanky couch? I told you, it's patio furniture from the Golden Girls!!!

Engelbrecht out.


  1. yes, of course I am reading, because all I do at night is look at google reader and get on pinterest...such excitement. But, my personal favorite version/translation of the bible is the ESV or the NAS b/c I think those are the closest to the original Hebrew and/or Greek. I have the ESV study bible, and I LOVE it. I think the message is great, but if I read it, I rarely read it alone...always alongside a more accurate version. Hope that helps? I can so relate to everything you wrote, though...I will be in such funk/depression/state of anxiety for days on end, and then it hits me that I have spent zero time in the word. And what do you know, it's true that our minds are transformed by his word just like Paul says ;) I'm a BIG believer in memorizing scripture because I think it has helped so much with my anxiety/depression, literally filling my mind with "whatever is true" to replace the anxious/negative/depressing thoughts. Anyway, I could go on and on about that...

    and I am always thrilled when you tell us what you're reading. I love a good book recommendation. I am trying to read the Hobbit right now. Have you read it or the Lord of the Rings trilogy? I have never read it in the same way that it took me forever to read Harry Potter, so I am hoping I will love it in the same way...we'll see...

  2. I have a message bible, but I use it to compliment my NIV version. I found mine at a used book store in Tennessee, I LOVE it! Nicole

  3. The Twelve is totally on my list. But I feel like I may need to re-read The Passage first--I only have a vague recollection of some of the plot points.

    And as far as Son goes, I am so excited to read that as well! But again, YEARS since I read any of The Giver books, so I'm probably due for a re-read there too!