First, a side note: I just (finally) finished the last episode of season 3 of Sherlock and I am totally split down the middle about either loving it or thinking it was sort of lame, so I took to google (of course) to spend nine hours reading recaps and reviews. And the people are split half and half too. I think I'm leaning towards the loving it, just for the scene where Molly smacked him around. And the scene where he looked like an idiot when he figured out those glasses were just glasses. HOWEVER, no one has mentioned the most SHOCKING thing to me!!! People keep talking about how Mycroft let him off easy, sending him into exile for a mission- but HELLO!!! Mycroft SPECFICIALLY says that the mission would last six months and then Sherlock would be killed. And then Sherlock himself says "Any my brother is NEVER wrong." So basically, Mycroft sent him to be executed!!! And not a single of the HUNDREDS of recaps and reviews I read have even mentioned it!!!
Also, Moriarity being alive? That will me LAME in all caps. Those writers have better have bigger plans or else I'm bailing.
Man, good tv really makes me miss Lost. Sigh.
So last time I checked in with thriving, things weren't going so well. And as always, looking back, gooooosssssshhhhh am I dramatic enough? Sheesh. It's almost embarrassing, except I can still vividly remember how desperate I felt, that feeling of heavy despair, like everything I had to do, I had to swim through maple syrup to do it. Weighted. Heavy. That's really the best way I can figure to describe it, everything feels so fucking heavy. I could barely lift my arms, my legs must have weighed five hundred pounds each. Everything happens in slow motion. It's just heavy. And desperate. I dunno. Maybe I'm just crazy.
ANYWAY. Point being, I'm a lot better. "I'm feel much better now. Clearer." Seven thousand points to anyone who can get that quote. Going to Rome helped, not only the INCREDIBLE vacation (duh) but also just the break in the monotony. I mean, my life is pretty fucking monotonous. Not only am I a typical Stay at Home mama with small children, I'm a Stay at Home mama with small children who never leaves the house if I can help it. And yes, I understand that that's a (sort of) choice, and it's what I need to do right now, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't start to wear on me every now and that.
To address that point, I am making it a point to get to play group tomorrow and hopefully have my neighbor over next week for coffee. Baby steps, right?
But of course, being me, my hatred for monotony is a double edged sword because I actually love it too. I love knowing exactly what's going to happen next. I love to eat the same thing for lunch, every single day. I love a plan, step by step instructions, every hour of every day. I love it, and I hate it. It's hard to be me, I'm tellin ya.
I have gotten back into the habit of using my awesome note app to make a detailed list for the day when I'm getting ready for bed, and that helps. I know for a lot of people, part of scaling back and thriving is to stop being a slave to their to-do lists, but (as always, it seems) I'm the opposite. I like to fill it up with the tiny details, because when I'm in a fog and feeling weighted down, it's very easy for me to forget the basics like 'empty the dishwasher after lunch' or 'put away the basket of clothes you've just folded' and things like that. And if I'm honest, I also really like that rush from putting a check in the box. Hey, I never claimed to be cool and sophisticated.
So ordering my day helps me to thrive. I've been reading the kids (Ava, no one else actually pays attention) a chapter each night from The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe every night, and that really helps me thrive. I've been working out every morning, and while I don't necessarily think that helps me to thrive (sleeping would help me more, I think) it helps me put another check in the box. I've been working on various quilts, and I'm trolling the ole pinterest looking for other ways to get the creative juices flowing. I've finally joined the library, and that, above all else, is helping me to thrive. Seriously. I mean, I love amazon as much as the next gal, but I like to read a lot. And books are like eight bucks a pop. So it gets to be pretty expensive. The library system here is pretty massive, and so far, I've been able to find a LOT of stuff to borrow and read. I figure I've saved a hundred bucks already, and I've only had my card about six weeks. (For any interested parties, so far I've borrowed What Alice Forgot, Dark Places, Echo Burning (a Jack Reacher book :) I'm addicted) the new Dean Koontz book, In the Woods, The Long Earth, and the ending of the Pure trilogy. All together now: LIBRARIES ARE AWESOME.)
So that's a recap of my mental state these last few weeks. Now on to the assignments. I'm still trying to keep up with the Ali Edwards prompts, but this month was sort of...not my style. The first assignment was a card for reflections for each month, and I can't think of a SINGLE thing to put for January!!! Not one.
That blank page is mocking me. MOCKING ME.
The next part was to list off some Actions for the year. Ugh. I'm good with goals like "put on socks and shoes" not year long aspirations. We're supposed to have twelve, the best I could do was eight. And they're lame, so please keep your opinions to yourself and your other friends.
Ugh. I do have the cards for 10, 11, and 12 made up in case I ever come up with anything else, but I'm not holding my breath.
Lastly, I needed something to go against the back of a page, so I made up my thrive Bible verse.
What about ya'll, anyone else still doing the One Little Word business?