Monday, August 18, 2014

Hustle or Slow Down?

*Yes, we are back from our epic Great Driving Adventure of Two Thousand and Fourteen. I will talk about it later, maybe. It was amazing and perfect and exhausting.

I get confused. A lot. Half the Internet World seems to want me to relish in the NOW. To Stop the Schedule, to Burn the To-Do Lists (my list, today, for those who are interested, says 'take a shower' and 'dinner????' with lots of question marks. Does this mean to make dinner? To decide what's for dinner? Or is it just a question: are we having dinner? Who knows.) to Sit Still and Relax and Enjoy the Moment.

But then the OTHER half of the internet wants me to GET SHIT DONE. Because I need to be HUSTLING everyday. I'm supposed to Make Something Beautiful Everyday. After all, I Have the Same Amount of Hours in a Day as Beyonce. (Side note: I'm calling bullshit on this one. No. I do NOT have as many hours as Beyonce. Say whatever you want about Money Can't Buy Happiness, but it sure as shit buys time. If I didn't have laundry and sweeping and cooking and driving and dishes [as I am POSITIVE Beyonce does NOT have] then I could spend my days BURNING THE TO-DO LISTS while simultaneously GETTING SHIT DONE.)

What is my point? I have no idea. Used to be, I would automatically side with the RELISH in the NOW camp because I am lazy and doing nothing is certainly easier than doing anything else. But I also want to GET SHIT DONE. Call me cray, but sometimes living in filth really gets me down. Stepping on wet, half chewed goldfish crackers for the seventeenth time makes my skin crawl. I want my vacay pics sorted and edited and bound in a gorgeous glossy book so I can look at them with Dub. (He's the only kid who ever wants to take OR look at pictures. He is my favorite.)

So how do I decide which LIFESTYLE I want? No, I'm asking for reals, this isn't rhetorical. I need to know.  They both seem to have a pretty solid argument.

Obviously, I know the answer should be MODERATION. The Internet World Mothers LOVE to talk about moderation. But what exactly does that look like? How can you moderate between two such POLAR OPPOSITES? How can you tell the dust bunnies to hush while you rock your babies, while simultaneously maintaining a clean and tidy desk so you can create all the things?

I don't want to miss the moment I'm in!!

But I want to be rewarded!!

I love staying home!!

But c'mon, I need to make some magic too!!

And I certainly don't want my mind to be untidy...

Well now this has just turned into me finding things on pinterest. So I better just quit. But I'm not supposed to quit!! And I'm also not supposed to be a slave to the computer!! I don't get it!!!


  1. So glad you're back! Can't wait to hear about your awesome trip! Also, you might live inside my head! I could have written every word of this myself...except the Pinterest part. I don't do Pinterest. I'm afraid if I dive into Pinterest I might drown and never get off the computer again. I battle with this do something productive and relax and enjoy concept All.The.Time! Be a woman of action vs. stop and smell the roses! It's maddening! Seriously...I think it's one of the reasons I'm so crazy!

  2. I really enjoyed this. I totally get how you're feeling. With my husband on deployment, all I do is race from one chore to the next. So either I am stepping up and being capable, or totally depriving my children of their right to luxuriate in a mother's love. Screwed either way!

    1. Right? So easy to pick the lazy option when you lose either way... Sorry your husband is deployed. I do not miss that AT ALL, and can't understand how some women enjoy it!